When Covid-19 hit in March 2020, the first 3 days of news and lockdown, I went into shock, I was in frizzing mode, (I had flashbacks of my country social unrest that lead me to leave for North America)
I worried about my safety.
I was afraid for my husband being an ER nurse, I worried about my family, friends, old friends in Venezuela, and new friends in Costa Rica.
I felt powerless, and hopeless as if all I have worked for in the last 3 years was lost.
I talked to everyone and anyone who would listen., My friend Kele reminded me of these words, “Be still and know that I am God”.
These words pierce through my soul and it woke me up.
I decided to go for it! To look for what He (God) meant (in my life) when he said those words to me.
In 2020 I didn’t bake bread or watch the latest series on Netflix, no, I studied, I read, I asked...
I read the entire Bible, did deep studies into Revelations, the Names of God, Faith Refined, some books of the minor prophets and the New Testament, read Mere Christianity by CS Lewis, watched all the documentaries I could find about missionaries everywhere, and prayed.
What I learned in 2020 is that “wait, you are going to like this."
I learned that I am NOT God...
Yes. I know! That’s not surprising to you... but (in a way) it was to me.
I’m not God and God doesn’t need me (he doesn’t need anyone), he wants me (I'd heard this before but not understood) to know Him, personally. He wants me to repent, over and over for my attempts of “Grandiosity “ ... To know him deeply, who He is, what He really wants... Yes. He is the cool guy who came to teach and who walked in sandals, giving a hard time to all the Pharisees, who cried for his friend, who died for me... the God I/we all love, and can easily follow... He also wants me to know and accept that He is also the God of Revelation 1:12-16:
I turned around to see the voice that was speaking to me. And when I turned I saw seven golden lampstands, and among the lampstands was someone like a son of man, dressed in a robe reaching down to his feet and with a golden sash around his chest. The hair on his head was white like wool, as white as snow, and his eyes were like blazing fire. His feet were like bronze glowing in a furnace, and his voice was like the sound of rushing waters. In his right hand he held seven stars, and coming out of his mouth was a sharp, double-edged sword. His face was like the sun shining in all its brilliance.
I don’t think, I have to tell you, how God used the Nest Costa Rica in 2020, (if you don’t know, please check out our Website or FB post) but I do want to tell you what God did in us “individually” as a testimony to his love for us, this past year.
Here is a short video to show you.
In 2021 we know that God will continue to teach me and our team about his power and character that He will continue to teach me and the Nest team how to, “Defend the poor and the fatherless; do justice to the afflicted and the needy” PSALM 82:3.
And to humble me to remember “to be still and know that He is God” Psalm 46:10.